Tuesday, 31 July 2018
I began fasting once a week since February 2016. I was inspired by a sister-in-Christ. I had thought, “Try first. I will learn more about fasting as I do it.” I had many prayer requests. I could not choose the most important to be the reason why I’m fasting. Nevertheless, something happened five months after I began my weekly fasting routine. My husband suddenly had to undergo a colorectal surgery to remove a malignant tumor. I was devastated with many disturbing thoughts. But I realized that it was during that challenging time that I could sense God’s presence, protection and divine provision. Till this day, I’m thanking God for His mercy and grace.
I did not stop fasting until I fell ill this June. This is the longest time my body has taken to recover. On 30 July, I decided to fast in a different way i.e. not on food but on my mobile phone. I have a habit of constantly checking my phone and responding to messages instantly. Sometimes lengthy messages can take up an hour of my time. I decided to be more disciplined in managing the use of my mobile phone.
A sister-in-Christ asked me yesterday, “What are you fasting for?” That question forced me (once again) to be more focused. I still have many prayer requests. Which one is the most important at the moment? These words popped into my head: “A Closer Walk With God.” When I heard that, I began to analyze - I analyze almost everything!!!
A closer walk with God would enable me to know Him better, to know His desires, expectations, thoughts, values… everything, isn’t it?
Then, I heard these words, “It’s NOT what you want. It’s what He wants.” That was the answer given to me some years ago when I asked a sister-in-Christ for advice. Suddenly, I also remembered what another sister-in-Christ said when I asked her for her opinion:
Indeed, we tend to ask one another for advice when we can simply be still and wait for Him to speak. I found myself thinking too much about what I want and not being still to hear what He wants to tell me. I must learn to be still.
Dear Father God,
Thank You for my sisters-in-Christ through whom You have used to guide me. At the end of the day, it’s Your Voice that I need to hear. It’s Your opinion that I need to know. Your ways are perfect. Your will is perfect. Even when things happen in unexpected ways, let all of us remind ourselves that You are still in control and You know the end from the beginning. We are unable to see the ultimate outcome until later. Help us LORD to trust You and follow You closely as You lead us to live a life worthy of Your calling.
Lam Yee Ling